Dear GRANDMA...........
Just want to share what I have wrote 5 years ago....Writing with tears in my eyes and regret for what I had not done for her...I wrote this just a few days after I lost 1 of my LOVES ONE....She left us forever but she is still ALIVE in our mind and heart....I dedicated this to my BELOVED GRANDMA....Mrs Philis Percil Pereira...May she Rest In Peace.....
She was a lady, a wife, a mother, a grandma & also a friend
She had spent her life time pleasing and appreciating others
She was an ordinary lady
with extraordinary strength to love and forgive others
Forgive and forget was what she practiced and taught others
Never ask but always giving without asking the reason why
Lady with a big and brave heart
Would do anything to pleased her loves one,
even sometimes it do hurt her own feelings
She loved her husband, her children & her grandchildren with all her heart
I keep wondering, do she received the same love from us
She kept all the hardness of life to her ownself
We don't even know she is leaving us
She kept it to herself
Is it no one bother to ask or us is too busy to realize
We know when nothing else can be done,
when she is just waiting for the time to leave us forever
All the pain, all the suffering, she kept it to her ownself
Do not want us to worry about anything and just living a normal, busy and chaotic life
And we had been ignoring the most important things in our life; HER
Will it be the same if she shared?
Will it be the same if we ask?
Will it be the same if we just stop thinking about our ownself for a second
and think just about her for that one second?
She ask nothing from us
She just keep giving, her entire life is always about us
She loves us so much and she kept all the sadness and pain she felt, for her ownself
It was way too late to regret
We learned from what had happened and pray same things will not happen in future
For the love she nourished us,
we will appreciate and let the love grow in our heart and in our family
Keeping her in our mind and soul
All the meaningful thought she taught us
All the message she deliver to us
All the advises she had been advising us
All the memories while she alive
...will always live as long as we are breathing
And we will tell the story of her to our children as well...
We love you with all the love we have.....and we will miss you forever
(November'06)
your grandaughter (very closed to you....seeing and feeling the pain of yours but do not know about your CANCER either..Im sorry Grandma, but nothing much can I do when I'm not knowing....)
*****Forgiveness means letting go the past while you learned from it......Love you all...
Tuesday 19 July 2011
Sunday 17 July 2011
The Reason - To Forgive
THE REASON
I am not a perfect person
There is many things I wish I did not do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do this things to you (Im just being me)
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I have found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
Im sorry that I hurt you
Its something I must live everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I have found out the reason to show
A side of me you did not know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you..
I should have said this (dedicated this song) to you long time ago...which is years ago...but it seems to be stuck just there....in my totally broken heart....I used to give a chance to US, which seems so great for several years...but then, again, it failed...
I did not put all the mistake on just U....because even if I try to deny it, there are also my mistake in our "Fallen Apart" relationship....Im sorry if it hurt you so much, because I know how it had felt...as I felt it too...I cant tell the truth as it will not only destroy us but also other relationship of yours....it is better to sacrifce US rather than ALL...
Just hope that you will find a better "other part of u" in someone else...as it will never be ME anymore...Let our "used to be dream" just flow with the wave of life...and take it as a part of life and experience that we will remember as a history of our life..Live your life happily as every human being should enjoy life and be grateful as you are still alive....God Bless you..Amin.....
The only reason Im doing and writing this is to forgive and be forgiven so that no one will misunderstood anyone of us....and for those who know the reason, please keep it to yourself and you guys too, enjoy your life and dont burden yourself too much..For those who do not know, dont misjudge by just looking and not trying to understand...Everybody should realize that everything happens for a reason and only God knows why...
As I believe, forgiveness is letting go of the past and when you forgive, you in no way change the past but you sure do change the future. .The secret is you will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well...
***My formula for living is quite simple. I get up in the morning and I go to bed at night. In between, I occupy myself as best I can....I would not want anything to stop me from living my life...Love you all...Daa....
I am not a perfect person
There is many things I wish I did not do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do this things to you (Im just being me)
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I have found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
Im sorry that I hurt you
Its something I must live everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I have found out the reason to show
A side of me you did not know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you..
I should have said this (dedicated this song) to you long time ago...which is years ago...but it seems to be stuck just there....in my totally broken heart....I used to give a chance to US, which seems so great for several years...but then, again, it failed...
I did not put all the mistake on just U....because even if I try to deny it, there are also my mistake in our "Fallen Apart" relationship....Im sorry if it hurt you so much, because I know how it had felt...as I felt it too...I cant tell the truth as it will not only destroy us but also other relationship of yours....it is better to sacrifce US rather than ALL...
Just hope that you will find a better "other part of u" in someone else...as it will never be ME anymore...Let our "used to be dream" just flow with the wave of life...and take it as a part of life and experience that we will remember as a history of our life..Live your life happily as every human being should enjoy life and be grateful as you are still alive....God Bless you..Amin.....
The only reason Im doing and writing this is to forgive and be forgiven so that no one will misunderstood anyone of us....and for those who know the reason, please keep it to yourself and you guys too, enjoy your life and dont burden yourself too much..For those who do not know, dont misjudge by just looking and not trying to understand...Everybody should realize that everything happens for a reason and only God knows why...
As I believe, forgiveness is letting go of the past and when you forgive, you in no way change the past but you sure do change the future. .The secret is you will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well...
***My formula for living is quite simple. I get up in the morning and I go to bed at night. In between, I occupy myself as best I can....I would not want anything to stop me from living my life...Love you all...Daa....
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