Dear GRANDMA...........
Just want to share what I have wrote 5 years ago....Writing with tears in my eyes and regret for what I had not done for her...I wrote this just a few days after I lost 1 of my LOVES ONE....She left us forever but she is still ALIVE in our mind and heart....I dedicated this to my BELOVED GRANDMA....Mrs Philis Percil Pereira...May she Rest In Peace.....
She was a lady, a wife, a mother, a grandma & also a friend
She had spent her life time pleasing and appreciating others
She was an ordinary lady
with extraordinary strength to love and forgive others
Forgive and forget was what she practiced and taught others
Never ask but always giving without asking the reason why
Lady with a big and brave heart
Would do anything to pleased her loves one,
even sometimes it do hurt her own feelings
She loved her husband, her children & her grandchildren with all her heart
I keep wondering, do she received the same love from us
She kept all the hardness of life to her ownself
We don't even know she is leaving us
She kept it to herself
Is it no one bother to ask or us is too busy to realize
We know when nothing else can be done,
when she is just waiting for the time to leave us forever
All the pain, all the suffering, she kept it to her ownself
Do not want us to worry about anything and just living a normal, busy and chaotic life
And we had been ignoring the most important things in our life; HER
Will it be the same if she shared?
Will it be the same if we ask?
Will it be the same if we just stop thinking about our ownself for a second
and think just about her for that one second?
She ask nothing from us
She just keep giving, her entire life is always about us
She loves us so much and she kept all the sadness and pain she felt, for her ownself
It was way too late to regret
We learned from what had happened and pray same things will not happen in future
For the love she nourished us,
we will appreciate and let the love grow in our heart and in our family
Keeping her in our mind and soul
All the meaningful thought she taught us
All the message she deliver to us
All the advises she had been advising us
All the memories while she alive
...will always live as long as we are breathing
And we will tell the story of her to our children as well...
We love you with all the love we have.....and we will miss you forever
(November'06)
your grandaughter (very closed to you....seeing and feeling the pain of yours but do not know about your CANCER either..Im sorry Grandma, but nothing much can I do when I'm not knowing....)
*****Forgiveness means letting go the past while you learned from it......Love you all...
I miiiiiiss u Grandma...If I just know that....=,,,(
ReplyDeletei wasnt a good daughter to g'ma nor g'pa.but i'm trying to be the best mum to my kids.i saw things in a diferrent way when they were around which was taking things for granted,but now when i'm alone i know the real world.what g'ma said.did or gave was so so special.n we should use it in our daily life,n insyallah what She did for us will always be alive.to my kids along,angah acik,alang,abang n adik.learn from mistakes.forgive n forget is a good thing.god is great,he is always around to show us the way.just remember u guys are all i've got.teach n guide each other will make us strong just like GRANMA.luv n respect each other is all i ask of u guys
ReplyDeletei am one of unlucky gurl who doesnt met her b4 but i know her daugter is perfect just like her. Her daughter is very special in my heart n i always wish she is mine forever. Hope grandma always in peace.
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